Dear Universe, It’s me.
Hello Universe, long time. I’m feeling down, and the sad thing is I only write to you when I’m feeling down in the dumps. It’s like when you have a sore throat, and you only really time you truly are grateful about swallowing is when you feel like your swallowing a load of spikes. The only way I can reason with myself is sitting down and really taking a moment appreciating what you do for me.
The problem I find is that I keep making excuses that life gets in the way, that I’m too busy, that things are okay, that I don’t need to write when I’m not feeling down, I need to enjoy feeling happy. I don’t think that should be the case. I was talking to a friend of mine the other day, who is a councillor. She told me that she gave out multiple sheets for people with depression and anxiety to complete, this was to help them to take a minute and write down any worries they had so that they could talk and tackle them in the next session . Most of them however did not get around to completing them. As a society we learn that things are best done in groups, friendships, school, business; therefore when it comes around to ‘me time’ often people just put it to the side and make another excuse to not spend time thinking about themselves, especially when people suffer with depression – they don’t want to be left alone with there thoughts.
I think we all take for granted the little things. We do it because we’ve become accustomed to it. What we forget is that change can come at any time, whether this be good change, or bad change. We forget because we get used to stuff. We should never be used to stuff. I remember sitting in a Philosophy class once watching a video on Buddhism. The Dalai Lama was talking about buddhism. I remember him saying that we should never live in the future or the past, we should always live in the now. I’d reached a problem, I sat there wondering; if I was supposed to live in the present how was I supposed to complete my goals without looking into my future, and planning ahead? See now I know that is not what he meant by this. What he meant is that the worries you have about the future, you don’t need to worry about them – they haven’t happened yet, you can plan all you want to, but allow into your plan change, because the world is always changing. When he said live in the ‘now’ I think what he meant was look around you, take in life, even if it’s just for 5 minute’s a day, be grateful for what you have, because there is someone in the world wishing they had a tiny amount of what you have.
Me time is important. In essence you are the only person you can 100% rely on in this world, you are going to be spending your whole life with yourself therefore you need to learn to love yourself, and that is what the intention of me time is for. People will let you down, and make you feel like the world is a horrible place. You will want to lock yourself in a room and never talk to another human being again. But in doing that you cut off all other opportunities. Good opportunities. You can’t get a rainbow without the storm, and what if the storm is present because it’s trying so hard to wash you clean? Shit happens. It happens to everyone. It happens because some people suck. It happens because tha’s life. But if you didn’t have the bad times then how on earth could you know how lucky you were to be blessed with so many good times. So take a breath. Read a book, listen to music, go on a walk, a run, anything. Just do it, spend some time alone, it’s scary, but in the end I promise it will be worth it. I work with you, and your thoughts – I can be your friend or your foe. So, what’s it gunna be? Friend or Foe?
From your Universe.